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...words I can't say...*´¨)♥ ♥ ♥ If I could gather all my tears ¸.•´¸.•*... ¸.•*¨) I would save them all for you (¸.•´ (¸.•` * *´¨) ♥ ♥ make an ocean to sail away and begin again... ♥ ♥ ♥~ But I'm so far away from gone... (´´•.¸(´´•.¸ ¸.•´´) ¸.•´´) no back up plan, no second chance... (¸. •´´(¸.•´´ ´´•.¸)´´ •.¸) Can you still feel me or did I slip away? ¸.•´ And as I go through all the sleepless nights, ( ´•.¸ all I can hear is the silence that remains ´•.¸ )and the only thing that gets me though is what I feel... ¸.•´¸.•*´¨) ¸.•*¨) (¸.•´ (¸.•´ and I feel YOU♥ ♥ ♥ _____xxxxxxxx________xxxxxxxx ____xxxxxxxxxx______xxxxxxxxxxx ___xxxxxxxxxxxxx___xxxxxxxxxxxxx ___xxxxxxxxxxxxxx_xxxxxxxxxxxxxx ___xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ____xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx _____xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ______xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx _________xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ___________xxxxxxxxxxxxx _____________xxxxxxxxx ______________xxxxxx _______________xxxx _______________ xxx ♥Дηдςŧдςίд♥ Untitled ♥♥♥ ...and as the salty air touched her cheeks and played with her hair, she stood on
what it seemed like miles and miles of nothing but white beach, witnessing the birth of the sun, listening to the whispers of the surf, writing his name in the sand, missing him so much and wishing that he was right there, beside her...
 Wishful thinking......and all I wanted to do is drift away in a dreamless sleep,
not to feel, not to think, not to worry anymore...
to wake up from this nightmare and face the new day,
knowing that I will be all right...
to close the chapter in the book and start another one...
But the sleep wasn't dreamless and the nightmare was right
there when I woke up...the final chapter was yet to be...
CONTINUED...
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¸ .*´¸.*ღ´¨) ¸.*ღ¨) (¸.*´ (¸.*` ღ*Anastasia *ღ  Blue November...Tears are coming down
Like a drop of rain falls to the ocean
Bringing me to my knees
Drowning me slowly...
Can't find the answers...
Looking for something To keep me from going under... Promises have been turned to lies
Searching for nothing Trying anything But everything still stays the same... With every turn of the calendar pages
I take another step
leaving a piece of myself behind...
One more step and I could fade away
If it happened, would it matter? Hollow is how I feel... As I turn another page in...
desperation...
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¸ .*´¸.*ღ´¨) ¸.*ღ¨) (¸.*´ (¸.*` ღ*Anastasia *ღ  Black widow......it was you who poisoned my mind...
it was you who made me the way I am...
sick of being kind...playing the sacrificed... today you are my prey...
I'm a black widow and it`s time for the
deadly game to begin... don't bother to put up a fight...
you can't flee... you can't escape your fate...
come into my arms, don't be shy...
now you'll get what you deserve... are you ready to die? How does it feel?
The deadly kiss...can you feel it? follow me into your worst nightmares...
the poison...the blood rushes through your veins...
your lips are pale...you shiver, you're numb, helpless, unable to move...
how does it feel? How does it feel to have no control?
life begins to shrivel...then all begins to blend...
I'm a black widow, starving and ready to eat...waiting for my sacrifice...
ღ´¨) ¸ .*´¸.*ღ´¨) ¸.*ღ¨) (¸.*´ (¸.*` ღ*Anastasia *ღ  911... ...people around,
Running... Inhaling the smoke.. Choking Tears... Jumping out of windows... Another flashpoint, More damn smoke, Another gaping, ominous hole... Time never ran out... Never got a chance... What were they feeling before they died? Pitted with metal, Fear, Smoke, Flames, A burning, nauseating, vomiting sensation. Those who never knew, Occupied were the unexpecting, Never got a chance. Workers, Commuters, Stairs, Levels, Collapsing, Crashing down. Burned, Crushed, Battered, and Buried Alive. Innocence, Never got a chance. Families, Never got a chance. Children, Never got a chance. AAARRRGGGHHHH! I SCREAM FOR YOU! I PRAY FOR YOU! I CRY FOR YOU! WHO WERE YOU? Heroes, The light of day rising again, Survivors, Rebuilding, resolving the memories of others... Passage to Autumn...Just like blushing leaves
swirling around in the Autumn breeze, purposeless and lost I'm waiting... for the pressure to cease, for the chain to break... desperate to see which way I fall... ღ´¨)
¸ .*´¸.*ღ´¨) ¸.*ღ¨) (¸.*´ (¸.*` ღ*Anastasia *ღ
Doubts...As I close my eyes and dream of what to come... I fear my desires... maybe they're too strong... maybe life has already expired... The doubt, thicker than blood, weakens my dreams. It gains and looses not... so much stronger that I thought... Wishful strokes upon the candles
is the only chance I've left... ღ´¨) ¸ .*´¸.*ღ´¨) ¸.*ღ¨) (¸.*´ (¸.*` ღ*Anastasia *ღ  What lies ahead...As the world turns,
so do we...
and with every turn,
a new challenge, a new hope,
new fears and new sorrows...
...with every turn,
nothings become meaningful
while some things fade into nothingness...
...with every turn
the unknown unfolds and a new question rises...
What lies ahead?
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¸ .*´¸.*ღ´¨) ¸.*ღ¨) (¸.*´ (¸.*` ღ*Anastasia *ღ  Dead end......driving on this highway
for what seems like an eternity
I'm my own companion,
where am I going?
trying to look straight ahead, but the mirage
is fooling my eyes and all I see is an
endless shimmering ocean...
no exits, no speed limits,
no room for U-turns... Am I lost?
Oh wait...
I can see something in the distance...
yes, there's a sign there...
need to get closer...
I can almost read it now...
a little closer...
it reads...
DEAD END...
 ღ´¨) Still...I ask the waves in the ocean
to show me the way...
a smile is all I get
as they keep on waving...
I ask the moon in the sky
for a tiny light to follow,
but night is clouded over
as the moon keeps on moving...
I ask the shells on the warm sand
to sign the life that is to be mine,
but their sounds are low
as they echo only a fading silence...
The moon still keeps on moving,
the waves still keep on waving,
the shells still keep on whispering
and I still keep on going on...
Anastasia  Changes...Something is different,
I can feel it in the air...
I don't know what it is,
but it's out there, somewhere...
This moment seems so strange,
in an eerie type of way.
It seems so still, so silent
like life has stopped today...
But it's not silent,
I can hear the wind as it's blowing
and it's not really still
with life outside moving...
A strange kind of calm, this stillness unseen...
a change in the Universe?
a change within me?
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¸ .*´¸.*ღ´¨) ¸.*ღ¨) (¸.*´ (¸.*` ღ*Anastasia *ღ  Uncertainty......as the world passes through my fingers,
in a gray maze of moments I walk...
took the turn and turned to
not knowing...
is it this way or that way?
still looking for the answer...
always find a new start
but never find the finish...
the turn I have just taken,
I might be just beginning
I might be near the end...
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¸ .*´¸.*ღ´¨) ¸.*ღ¨) (¸.*´ (¸.*` ღ*Anastasia *ღ
 Somewhere in between......somewhere in between what's real and just a dream,
looking past the shadows of a screaming mind,
trying to identify voices that speak in tongues...
which one is right, which one is wrong...
waiting for today, then waiting for tomorrow,
yearning to feel one more time, what it feels like to feel again...
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Feelings......a mind raped by screaming thoughts...
...a heart massaged by a cold grey mist... ...a soul drenched in uncertainty...
...an existence covered in desperation...
...an everyday life measured in emptiness...
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They come every night......embraced by the moonlight, disguised as the wind,
creeping through the open window and into the dimly lit room
"Dream out loud" they say," in this light you got nothing to hide"
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They come every night
lingering with the grey silhouettes on the bare walls...
"Don't fear the shadows" they say," understand them, become one of them"
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They come every night
only to fade with the birth of the sun...
only to leave me trapped in my existence...
angels of the silences, keepers of the void...
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